I speak to you and I lose my mind. Everything I have worked on goes out the window. The control waines and my heart screams so loudly that it shatters - again.

What is wrong with me?
Why cant I be like everyone else?

I know I am not what he wants. He keeps telling me that. You would think that I have the dignity to keep walking. But I start and then I look back. And I cry and wail and moan. And Miss him terribly. But I know its not mutual so again - WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

Over

So its over.
Finally.
And it feels like we just broke up yesterday. I have been crying for two days. I dont know why...
He treats me like shit and cant bear to be around me. Why would I mourn for that?

Why cant I be happy? I knew that this was happening to me...
I cant spend anymore time on someone who wouldnt make me happy in the long run.
And yet I am sad
So sad. And I miss him. But he doesnt

He is just not that into me