I sometimes I find things so complicated to think about that eventually my brain overheats and moves on to the next problem. At the moment, I am trying to understand and decide what to do about my present relationships.

The child in me wants to sit the other person down and ask them to talk to me and be interested in resolving the issue. The adult in me says, take all the pain and be the stronger better person. The dreamer in me says, you wanted to marry this person and now you can't understand why he is behaving this way. The realist says, this is love and life and it requires work. The skeptic says, you could do all the work and still find out that this is falling apart or worse get further involved in a situation that gets deeper by the year, waste time and be hurt even further.

I have never understood two things about myself - 1. How was i born with a lack of interest in judging others. 2. Why do I like to learn about myself by asking questions about me to my partners? This only ever results in my amazement at their judging me and what they feel an open invitation to criticise my every move...

Maybe I should stop taking responsibility. Maybe I should break the age old habits of being interested, trying to live my life with and for someone else, care whether I hurt them when i criticise them and move along like an unabated steam train, chugging through my life.

But then, I wouldn't be me!

Maybe